While I have a little time on my hands I thought I would write about a little experience I had when my mother died over 10 years ago.
I was close to my mother but I regret not spending as much time with her in her later years. She always would say I have a life to lead when I visited her so I think she understood.
In the mortuary I cleared everyone out and shared my thoughts with her. Just before I left, I swear I saw movement, in fact I know I did. It was as if she was saying goodbye.
All these years later I think about her from time to time but I have never experienced messages from her or any other form of contact. I put this down to the fact that she would know that I would become frightened and she wouldn't want this to happen.
I guess my message to others would be to ensure that you always let people you love know that you love them before it's too late. For the last few months of my mothers life I wasn't there for her but as I said we were pretty close. Those last few months are the times that I regret badly.
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When my mother died
Re: When my mother died
There's no need to feel badly because the answer was always there - as you said.
You can't predict easily when someone will pass away. The fact that your mother said you should be having a life means she knew that you should be spending time elsewhere, at least that's what I am picking up.
So there's really no need to feel down about all this. I reckon you should ask the deity for a bit more inner strength and go out and look to live life to the extremes for a little while. Go for some life excesses and overindulge in many ways. Honest, this is what your mother would want you to do judging by your post.
